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February (Webruary)

I'll try having some kind of blog here. Though I don't know if this'll get much use since I don't have a lot going on in my personal life that's super interesting and I don't want to turn this into a vent page either. Regardless, this page exists now in case the need use it comes up

April 3rd, 2026

Hi I remembered I can just write here! I feel like I should try and give this an earnest try and see how I like it, right?

I kinda just wanna chat about how my year's been going so far really. So far it feels like its been going...ok so far? Maybe. Nothing big or fancy has happened so far yet but things have been pleasantly ok for the most part. I've gotten the urge to draw more recently, and I think my main goal for drawing this year really is to just be faster at it. Playing it more fast and loose while also not sacrificing too much in terms of quality. I haven't Quite figured it out yet but, I'm practicing! I'm trying to just see how much I can do in a day without worrying too much about the smaller details. I have a bad habit of overthinking thinks alot and it extends to the way I draw too.

Aside from that, I've also been trying to be better about some lifestyle choices to help improve my mental health recently. I've been getting back to doing exercise again to try and get in better shape and that's been going fine so far. Exercise tends to be difficult for me not because I can't do it, but mostly because its just hard to find the time for it when I'm not working. Hopefully now that spring is here and we have more sunlight I have more opportunities to go on walks again. I've also been making more of an effort to use Bluesky less often. After cohost went down I quickly wanted to find another place to jump into so I hopped on Bluesky pretty quickly and ever since then I've felt like I've fallen back on bad habits from when I still browsed Twitter. Whenever I'm on there for too long I can feel my mood go down and my focus begin to slip away. I waste too much time on there and I'd like to use my time on better things so I've been limiting myself more from it, though I still peek every so often to catch up with people I'm close to. I've also began trying therapy a few weeks ago. It's still pretty early and I feel a little skeptical about it but I want to give an honest try and see if it helps me feel less stuck in place. Lastly, I think making time to hang out with my online friends has also been a big help recently haha. We hop on discord calls to either work simultaneously on our own stuff or just hang out and chat about literally anything while one of us plays a game for the rest, and its been nice. I think I'm still kind of bad at carrying a conversation or bringing up conversation topics of my own but I'd like to think doing these weekly hangouts have been pushing me to being better at socializing. At the very least it feels nice spending time with them and I'm glad we're at the point where we can crack jokes together and talk comfortably with each other, it's always a fun time being with them!

I'm hoping I can move forward with some stuff I want to do this year. I told myself that I would make an effort to be more social this year so, I booked a trip to an FGC (Fighting Game Community) event and am gonna try my luck with that! I mainly used to play these online or on my own but fighting games are meant to be a social activity with someone so I want to start by focusing on that social aspect. The trip is actually in one week from today so I'm hoping things go well! I also want to be better about consuming media that Isn't just whatever the Youtube recommendation list feeds me... I'd love to watch some shows or anime that I've missed out on or that friends of mine have talked about and recommended, or maybe dig into some older games/ indie games and see what's there. I don't wanna feel like I've been living under a rock for years anymore!! I think my ultimate goal for the year is to actually make And Finish something before the year ends so I have something to point to for: Things I Have Done for 2026. I have a few ideas and they feel fairly small in scope so here's hoping I can actually share more about those later this year!! I know things seem kind of grim when you look at *makes a very broad gesture with my arms* everything else going on but I don't want to let that stop me or hold me down.